I recently posted a discussion regarding when is enough "enough?" By that I was relating to my latest relaspe over a week and a half ago. I stopped drinking after I became so ill last Tuesday from binging on Sun & Mon. I've never been that ill and I've been hospitalized many times in the past year and a half. I haven't even missed it since last Tues. I've been sober for a week now. It feels great, finally. This last time I truly felt that if I drank anymore I would die. I had to decide if I wanted to live or die. It was like I was hanging from a cliff in Yosemite, dangling, trying to save myself, from myself. It took a few days but by late Fri. afternoon I knew I had had enough. It was over. By this I mean that it's over for me hiding from life and my feelings with the use of wine. It's over for me to be able to check out because it hurts so much sometimes, or most of the time at this point in my life. I asked my Dr. yesterday does he ever "know" for sure if a patient has truly had enough and has stopped the cycle. He said after a year. However, he added, he hasn't ever heard someone say it like I did...that it is over. I do believe it is over for me. I hope I am right. alice
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