so it started out with im going to stop over drinking a month ago or so. i guess i got tired of waking up hungover and making a fool of myself. ive never been a violent one or had to go to jail or anything like that. but i have embarrased myself enough to know i dont deserve this. then once i stopped things started to come clear i never saw before. how much i am afraid to let people in and how ive been using it as a crutch cause im socially shy. now im finding myself depressed and not knowing what to do with my free time. and nobody i know seems to understand how hard this is so its leaving me feeling incredibly lonely. is this normal? and if so what do i do to make it better?
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