I have been battling alcoholism for a long time. Lately, I have made more attempts to work the steps but only to fail...over and over again. I know exactly when I am going to drink and no matter how hard I try I seem to make a complete idiot out of myself, hurt loved ones, experience extreme humiliation(I am so humiliated today) and I continually come back for more! I ask myself why??? I would really appreciate some good advice on other ways to practice sobriety or what other's may have found works. I had a drinking binge begin on Thursday...I met a friend that flew in from Atlanta...I haven't seen him in 2 years...I got so inebriated he left in the middle of the night. I am so embarrassed and I feel so bad about myself and I just want to hide somewhere and cry until I run out of tears! Any advice on how to cope?
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