I got drumk the other night, first time in 7 years! I've tried to drink, just turned it out I couldn't. Well, now I can. I don't know why! I talked to an ex and it brought back old feelings. I started to look at my marraige, which is awful. I just quit my job. All I wanted was to drink, drink, drink when I saw he messaged me. I cried myself to sleep last night. He keeps ending me emails. I miss him from deep inside. I know it wouldn't work. We would both have to get divorced! Then we live 75 miles away from each other. He flirts alot, I'm a jealous person. As I evauate all of this, I miss him more. But we're not the same people as 13 years ago! I don't want to become a drunk again. I've got a 6 yr old to take care of. It was 8 oclock and I was thinking of drinking. I should have never did it. 7 years I wasted. I left all my friends cause they drank, so I could stay sober. I've quit a bad addiction with meth 9 years ago. Haven't relapsed, never will. That was easy to quit.(NOT REALLY) Not like people and liquor. I want some tequila!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Vodka!!!!God help me I'm going insane and can't quit crying!
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