I don't like who I am when I drink. I love who I am when i don't. I absolutely adore my daughter and abhor what i put her through with her frustrations with my stopping and starting. I always basically function but not as myself. My problem is for as long as I can remember I have drank at the end of my day, it was more important than dinner. While I don't like the person I am with it I don't know how to live without it. I've gone to meetings, I had one short 5 day stint in rehab followed by outpatient meetings. I have all the intellectual knowledge and the personal feelings that I'm so much beter without it but I don't know how to live in my own skin, my own home without it. The thing is I've not found the plan to live my life without it.HELP
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