I can not seem to get a grip on this drinking issue. I am 42 years old and up until a year ago I never felt the need to drink, it was never a part of my life on a regular basis. Frankly going out to the bars was too expensive and I always had better things to spend what little money I had on. Then very suddenly, my father in law died, we were very close, then equally as suddenly my father died. He was an alcoholic and sober for 40 years or so. I lived through his drinking and watched him sober up and repair his life and children. He mentored hundreds of other people in his time and I was so extremely proud to be his daughter. So why all of a sudden can I not put down a drink? WHY? I can't wrap my head around it. I have 4 kids and a new husband and I am terrified that I will not be able to stop. I don't want it in my house but my husband likes to have a drink and even if I don't buy it for myself he buys it. I can't handle being around it at all. Even if I am having a good day, busy, not thinking about my dad, once i put the kids to bed I have a drink. It only takes 2 drinks and then I black out. I have never experienced this before and I am completely terrified that I am going to tear my family apart. There are no AA meetings I can attend. The local one is in the middle of the day 2 towns away from me. This is all I have so any suggestions I would GLADLY accept.
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