Hi,I'm feeling really bad today because I went sinse Thanksgiving without one sip of alcohol.I was so proud of myself for all that time.Christmas came w/plenty of temptation to drink w/friends and family,still,I did not do it.I was questioned a couple times why haven't I drank anything,or do you need a refill?I've told no one about my personal desire to quit drinking,(their to wrapped up in themselves to care or have any respect for my wishes.)Anyway,I sat back and observed from the other side of the fence,(The clear minded side)and realized how stupid and so unclassy alcohol makes you look to the ones not drinking.I left the party early thanking God for giving me the strength to not give in.Again,I was proud of myself for my own actions,something that I've never been able to say for myself.So don't you know,I get phone calls all day yesterday and into the night about my upity attitude and how I think I'm cute,too Good to join the party,and why did I have a stick up my ass all night!I can promise you all here at DS that I did not in anyway act better then any of them.All I did was refrain from drinking w/them.The closest people to me were the ones that talked at me the worst.I just feel sad,so today @6:00am I was already thinking about getting drunk,and by 10:00am I was drunk.I am not proud of myself anymore.I remember not caring yesterday what people had to say because I still had my pride,so I didn't need them.Now I'm without them and my pride.I feel really sad today.
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