I will be one month sober on Christmas Day (yeah), but I'm getting scared. So many of the friends I've met through treatment are relapsing, and it is difficult to know what to do for them as I have enough on my plate right now just taking care of myself. I feel kindof selfish for this, and also guilty that my own recovery is going so well. I am also so scared of suicide. I have absaloutely no thoughts of it, but it seems like I've opened the door to a community where it is a much more common thought. I guess I'm scared because it is the unknown and I just don't understand it.
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