I'm not interested in anything,anyone,any reason,to have or not have,to live or not live.I am always talking/praying to God,No matter,He doesn't hear me!I feel like he left me along time ago.I always have known I was blessed even though I had a bad childhood,I knew even then,I was meant to be okay if I chose.That feeling is now long gone.I feel like I have been abandoned by God.Almost like he is saying ,"I gave to you and you rebuked all I had to offer,so you're now on your own".I feel condemned and punished ,by God.I don't know how to pray anymore,and don't feel like I have the right to talk to God until I fix my life.I feel like he will not listen to me till then.Has anyone out there felt so alone to the point that they cannot even bring themselves to pray,get on your knees,talk to God with the nerve to wait for an answer?
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