Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Maybe not at a really fast speed, but I feel like at some point I lost the will to resist alcohol. The two primary reasons for this are: (1) a very stressful business I operate; (2) a less than desirable marriage.
#1 is the biggest reason, and I can go into huge lengths in that area, but I want to spare you that. #2 is a factor as well, but not as large. In essence both my professional and private life are not what I pictured (not exactly the best way to put it, but whatever).
Again, the professional side of it is my biggest reason I drink. As for the personal side - my wife is a good woman, but I married her more out of convenience than anything else. An extremely stupid reason and really thoughtless in many respects - and I'm entirely to blame there.
My business is what I'm best at - but it's also caused me a huge amount of stress. My family has also invested a considerable sum in what I'm doing (and I have also done the same personally), and we're not rich - I'm very good at keeping a level head, but drinking is my vice. And it's become too much.
I'm going on two years now without a salary (and over a $100,000 investment from myself, and over $600,000 from my family) - and this has played no small part in me drinking a lot. I have very little money left, but I always find a way to buy alcohol (except using company funds - I won't "steal" to drink). But at the same time I'm doing no one any favors by drinking - days I can't go to work due to hangovers, days I get headaches that prevent me from working effectively, etc. If I''m not there at 100% my team doesn't operate at 100%.
This is MY fault. I'm not blaming anyone else. But in the process of what I've done I haven't kept any relationships with friends. I haven't lost friends due to alcoholism - it's just most of my friends are in other states, and I'm fairly bad at keeping in touch.
I need to regain control. I've been pretty open (but brief) as to what led me to this state, but I need help. And I don't have money to enroll in some detox program.
I keep the alcohol problem to myself, and I think the only ones that know are my wife and family - both of which don't say anything. I'm not abusive when drunk; I probably qualify as a pretty good drunk because I know when I've had too much and don't want to draw undue attention to myself. But I need to start finding ways to reversing this before I do irreversible damage to myself or someone/something else.
I downed a bottle of wine before posting this. Sorry for any spelling or grammar errors because I'm not going to be 100% at proofreading right now.
#1 is the biggest reason, and I can go into huge lengths in that area, but I want to spare you that. #2 is a factor as well, but not as large. In essence both my professional and private life are not what I pictured (not exactly the best way to put it, but whatever).
Again, the professional side of it is my biggest reason I drink. As for the personal side - my wife is a good woman, but I married her more out of convenience than anything else. An extremely stupid reason and really thoughtless in many respects - and I'm entirely to blame there.
My business is what I'm best at - but it's also caused me a huge amount of stress. My family has also invested a considerable sum in what I'm doing (and I have also done the same personally), and we're not rich - I'm very good at keeping a level head, but drinking is my vice. And it's become too much.
I'm going on two years now without a salary (and over a $100,000 investment from myself, and over $600,000 from my family) - and this has played no small part in me drinking a lot. I have very little money left, but I always find a way to buy alcohol (except using company funds - I won't "steal" to drink). But at the same time I'm doing no one any favors by drinking - days I can't go to work due to hangovers, days I get headaches that prevent me from working effectively, etc. If I''m not there at 100% my team doesn't operate at 100%.
This is MY fault. I'm not blaming anyone else. But in the process of what I've done I haven't kept any relationships with friends. I haven't lost friends due to alcoholism - it's just most of my friends are in other states, and I'm fairly bad at keeping in touch.
I need to regain control. I've been pretty open (but brief) as to what led me to this state, but I need help. And I don't have money to enroll in some detox program.
I keep the alcohol problem to myself, and I think the only ones that know are my wife and family - both of which don't say anything. I'm not abusive when drunk; I probably qualify as a pretty good drunk because I know when I've had too much and don't want to draw undue attention to myself. But I need to start finding ways to reversing this before I do irreversible damage to myself or someone/something else.
I downed a bottle of wine before posting this. Sorry for any spelling or grammar errors because I'm not going to be 100% at proofreading right now.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
BernieO
There is AA. It's free, it works and you've made the first step already. You admit there is a problem waiting to turn into a disaster.
you seem to be an intelligent man. Most alkis are, intelligent, that is.
The pre-amble they read at the meetings here pretty much suns up what AA is.
"Alcholics Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women, who share their experience, strength and hope with each other in order to help other alcholics to achieve sobriety. The only requirement for membership is the desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for AA membership, we are self supporting through our own contributions. AA is not allied with any sect, denominationor politics, or orginization, neither endorses or opposes any causes. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help others to achieve sobriety."
There's lots of info about getting sober and yoou are in the right place!
But if you are afraid you will go into serious withdrawel, definately go to detox first, or talk to your Doc. Coming off booze can be serious business and for some really dangerous to do on your own. Depends where your drinking is at right now. You don't have to be a "skid row" drunk to go through DT's.
Good luck.
I had a great Buisness and a fantastic Girlfriend, both of whom I miss very much. 30 Staff and 300 Temporary staff. I blamed stress and pressure so I drank.
The result, I lost the lot.
Everything in Life runs so much better sober,believe me.
So maybe stop blaming everything else around you, and begin to look at your real problem, Alcohol.
Slow destruction, turns to fast destruction, and then its like a train with no brakes, you have an opportunity here to change, take it.
Share here take advice, get well, save you and everything around you.
Because I fear that if you do not, your dreams and hard work, will go down the same hole - the drain.
Sort it
Trickey
Be well and keep seeking the answers will come.
BE GOOD TO YOURSELF