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I have to be honest!!

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Well I had been doing so well, took the advice given me on here and another site. Went to the doctors and got medication for my withdrawel and got through that. I went yesterday and hes given me campranal to help prevent cravings and appointments at the hospital for blood tests, liver etc., and x rays

So six days clean and what do I do?????? Call my ex, realy clever, and pick up a drink. I dont blame him no one can make me drink, it was my reaction to what he said to me, (mainly complaining of our lack of sex life)! Wonderful Im trying to get well and thats all hes bothered about.

Now I feel, stupid and ashamed, and sick! Esp sick of myself, I feel like ive let everyone on here down, Ive lost another day of my life in bed recovering, and missed a really important appointment for some new training cause I wouldnt answer my door!! So a total failure,,,,,,

I feel really isolated and alone, my best and pretty much only friend leaves for treatment tomorrow, which is wonderful cause I want her to get well but have no idea how I will cope without her. I no I need to get out there, work, training, volunteer or something to get some self worth and meet sober decent people. I want to do all this, but no its not going to happen if i keep drinking.

So here I go again, day 1 without a drink and Im start taking my pills tomorrow and get to that hospital and hopefully start the rest of my life, sober

I just wanted to be honest with you all. Thanks for reading.
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Sounds like you are taking the steps to prevent another relapse. Don't drink one day at a time and try not to talk to your ex again. At least not right now. Try to go to a meeting, you don't have to talk, just listen and see if you connect with others. That may help you more than you know...Any help I can be just let me know...Good Luck
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The shame is devasting, isn't it? I know what it's like to feel so incredibly alone and to have all of these positive thoughts about how to live life, all while wasting a day away on a hangover. It's an aweful cycle. Take it an hour at a time if you need to.
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Read this post when you think about a drink again. Been there. Don't give up, don't argue with yourself. Sounds like you have all the right ideas. Pick one a day to do. Or one a minute. You'll be happy you did.
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Campranal can and do work for some, but of course you need to give them time to kick in.

OK you have had a slip, in early days thats nothing new, it's great you have decided to try again.

Just keep trying seek help and you will find what you are looking for

Take care and good luck

Trickey
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Until you admit complete defeat, will the compulsion to drink be lifted. Yes the pills may make it easier to not crave the alcohol. When you have had enough, you've had enough. If you have nothing to do please try an A.A. meeting. I'm willing to bet someone their will keep you company, and talk about what recovery really is. No best friend, family member will keep you sober. Probably might be able to keep your mind off of it for awhile. Your strong, and can do this. God loves you.
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That is how I started out, I would go a couple weeks without drinking and then I would slip and pick up again. Then maybe go 2 months and do it again. I had to keep learning lessons and they weren't pleasant ones, to realize that I couldn't drink again,EVER. It was very tough in the beginning because alcohol was my escape from reality. I have found that with time your head clears and sobriety is a much more wonderful place to be and life is beautiful - no need to hide behind a beer bottle. But sometimes when things get tough I will think about drinking, but I need only to remember the hell I went through and I NEVER want to go there again. So forgive yourself for your slip, but never forget how bad you feel today and maybe that will help get you through the next time you want to drink. Don't ever give up.
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glad 2 hear ur goin back. and im sure it wasnt easy for u to b that honest. (an we both kno that u didnt HAVE 2)so u must really want to be a part of the sober life. nice honesty. good luck...
LindaJean
LindaJean
Is your ex a drinker? Did you drink together? If so - you're setting yourself up to drink when you call him. I know how that feels - I did it. I wanted to go back to that cozy, dark place that my ex and I went to when we drank. Try to think about the end of your last drinking round. Think it all the way through to the end BEFORE you pick up a drink. And if you can convince yourself that your life will improve - taking into consideration what you know about your drinking - well why not drink? But we all know that it will not improve and it will just take you down another rung on a very dangerous ladder. Think it through - dear. This is life and death to an alcoholic. You have three choices (1) get sober and live well (2) go insane and/or get a wet brain (3) die. There are no fairy tales with this disease - unless you get sober and you wlll hjave a life well beyond your expectations. I did and you can too.
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So you made a mistake, haven't we all??? You can recover from it and it sounds like you want to. That makes you maybe halfway there (that is based on where I was when I made my last mistake of drinking and was determined to stop). Why did you talk to your ex...does he fill a need you have, or are you just bored? If you don't need/want him, don't call him. Take control of yourself and your life. I went to a group therapy session tonight and one of the topics was a discussion for one of the women there trying to solve her problem of talking to her estranged husband when she wants to divorce him. Think carefully about why you talk to him and you may have some insight about yourself. Good luck and my thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Argh! Don't call your ex (unless you have to for custody reasons or something and then refuse to talk if the conversation strays). I know its difficult. Sobriety would be ten times harder for me if I still had any contact with my ex.
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Don't beat yourself up. At least you have a game plan and hopefully working the steps. Have you gone to AA meetings? If so pick yourself up and go to one. You need it. If not call you local AA and get to one. All you have to do is listen and see if you relate. By listening, you will find out that hey they understand you.

Keep on you going.
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The first thing I did when I stopped drinking was go to an AA meeting. Go each day or twice a day if you need to.

When we reach out people in AA will offer you support and most of all greet you with love.

When I was at your stage, I did not talk to people who I knew would push my buttons.

You have courage and honesty and for that I congratulate you.

Remember, One Day at a Time and remember the Serenity Prayer.

Wishing you well.
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sounds good, good luck to you.
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