Hello, I don't say much but right now I am feeling so alone. Last night I went on a major bender and then ended up doing cocaine on top of it (I NEVER do drugs). I feel just depressed and anxious and hopeless. I stopped drinking for one week when I visited my parents as they are a sober household. No alcoholics in my birth family but a long line of alcoholics on my Mom's side. That week was about 2 week ago and now I am back to drinking again. I'll go a few days just having 2 drinks and then BAM, back into getting drunk for a night, feeling horrible the next day. I went 'cold turkey' at my parents house. There was alcohol around as my sister brought over wine for Christmas and I didn't even want it. Now, I'm back with all the people, including my husband, who drink daily. I NEVER drank until 4.5 years ago. NEVER. It wasn't an issue for me. Now, it's a big issue. Can you become an alcoholic due to your environment and stress? I used to drink normally and then whammo. I have no insurance so treatment centers aren't an option for me. I am so confused. I just needed to write something. Anything. I miss being the person who didn't need this most of the time. I wonder what happened to her? Thanks for reading this. I really appreciate it.
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