I AM SO AFRAID THAT I FEEL LIKE I WILL DIE,WHERE IS THIS GOING? I HAVE TO GO TO THE BANKRUPTCY LAWYER AT 1 TOMORROW. I PANICKED LAST TIME AND RESCHEDULED,I AM FEELING THE SAME WAY.I HAVE NEVER HAD ANY FEELING LIKE THIS BEFORE.I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GET THERE,I AM READY TO PASS OUT ALREADY..I FEEL SHORT OF BREATH,SWEATY PALMS,I HAVE A RASH ON MY NECK AND PART OF MY FACE.I NEED TO DRINK SO I DON'T DIE OF A PANIC ATTACK.I AM ALSO AFRAID TO TRAVEL BY CAR TO THIS LOCATION, IT IS A BAD NEIGHBORHOOD.I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE THINKS OF ME ANYMORE, I JUST HAVE TO SURVIVE. WHAT WILL I DO IF I AM TOLD I CAN'T KEEP MY HOUSE?WHY DID I MARRY THIS ABUSER AND LET HIM TAKE CHARGE OUT OF FEAR OF HIM?I HAVE TO INVENT MY OWN HAPPINESS, HOW ELSE IS THERE TO DO IT? I TRIED PRAYER YESTERDAY AND TODAY. I CALLED ABUSE LINE YESTERDAY AND I COULD NOT BELEIVE HOW MUCH THEY UNDERSTOOD WHAT HE IS DOING. IF I WILL LOSE THE HOUSE,DO I WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH THIS DUDE? EVERYTHING HAS ME OVERWHELMED, I FEEL THAT I HAVE JUST ABOUT LOST EVERYTHING,MY ASSESTS,MY HOUSE BUT MOST OF ALL MY SANITY.NO ONE CAN IMAGINE BEING YELLED AT NON-STOP AND GIVEN NON STOP ORDERS..NOW HE IS SAYING ANOTHER FAULT OF MINE IS THAT I ACT SO EASY GOING. NO, NOT SO..JUST HAVE NOTHING LEFT INSIDE TO REACT WITH!!!
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