I can't do it. I can't stay sober. I can't go for more than a few days without getting wasted. My sober date was Sept 30th. It is the 5th and I have already relapsed twice. What the fuck is wrong with me? And how in the hell do other people run around life sober!!! What kind of skills do they have that I lack that prevents me from going about life sober. I have so much potential and yet I squander it all on this fucking disease. I am such a pathetic loser. I can't even do the one thing "normal" people seem to be able to do. I am such a fraud. I put up such a front like everything is ok when it is anything but. Why, why, why, why, why am I not strong enough to overcome this????
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