It's hard for anyone to admit they are powerless over anything. Especially for me, for years i thought i had life by the tail. Living the American dream. The car the house the great family. Then alcohol took all that away. I was so blinded by my addiction that i didnt even see it happening. I tried to quit so many times on my own. Sometimes going for up to a month at a time. Everytime i ended up going back out there drinking again. Now that i've been going to meetings and have a sponsor, I have not had to pick up a drink. I had never been to a meeting until i got into some legal trouble. The court decieded that i needed some treatment. The court was right! At first i was really pissed out that i had to go. I thought, well i'm not like those people, i'm different. The truth is i'm exactly like them. It took me a while to understand why they were always so happy and smiling. Support has been the milestone to keeping me clean so far. I intend to stay very active in meetings and working my steps. I don't think i can handle going back out there again. And i dont want to take the chance to find out.
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