Hi all. well once again after coming home drunk from golf last night, my husband, who is also an alcoholic but doesn't think he is and believes he can control his drinking cam home and was so very mean. I guess I knew right off the bat that he would be drinking but of course he assured me that he would not be drunk when he got home and that he would not be an ass.. ha! The moment he walked in the door, I tensed up, I answered his questions and tried to keep the peace but he increasingly got mad about the stupidist things and was verbally abusive. My six year old and I slept in her room after he passed out because I couldn't take the smell. In the morning before he left for work he tried to kiss me and asked "why are you being so cold". I reacted and said "because Bruce, you were drunk and mean last night". "What did I do? "You were acting and saying some really mean things and were drunk.. "Well something must have set me off". My fault I guess. At least that's his opinion. I am fighting for my life here to stay sober because I know it is the best and only way for me to live and raise my kids. I don't want to drink today however I am so sick of my life with him and I feel trapped.. He is not the person I would want to spend the rest of my life with.. When he does'nt drink, he is tolerable.. when he does, it's horrible.. Not much more to say just looking for support.. I will work today, get to a meeting tonight, talk to my sponsor, and I will pray. That's about all I can do.. just wondering how others might deal with this if they have had similar situations... thanks for reading.. kari
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