I know that lately (1year or so) have been drinking too much too often. But adding drinking to my depression; I am no longer a "fun" drunk, but a "dark blanket". This weekend I hurt my family by leaving where we all were and not telling them where I went; I just felt I needed to "run". Unfortunately I was drunk so they were very worried. I drove an hour away and left a message for my family to bring my husband and two kids home the next day. I feel this incident has put me at the lowest level of my life and right now I hate myself so much. My sisters are mad and one of them more or less kicked me out of her family's life until I get my life straight. What's my next step and how do I make this situation better????
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