MY HUSBAND IS AN ALCOHOLIC .. HE IS VERY ABUSIVE, VERBALLY, EMOTIONALLY, AND SOMETIMES PHYSICALLY ... HE IS A TORTURED SOUL, AND HAS NO INTENTION OF STOPPING .. HE LIKES DRINKING .. WHEN HE'S SOBER, HE IS INTROVERTED, QUIET, BUT ANGRY, PARALYZED, AND STAYS IN BED ALL DAY AND NIGHT, IN THE DARK .. HE WATCHES T.V. AND THAT IS THE ONLY NOISE AND LIGHT HE CAN DEAL WITH .. NO TALKING .. STRIKE UP A CONVERSATION WITH HIM, AND HE IS EXTREMELY AGITATED .. BUT I FORCE HIM TO LISTEN ... I ALSO YELL AT HIM FOR THE THINGS HE DID THE NIGHT BEFORE, WHILE HE WAS DRUNK ... I GET SO DAMN PISSED OFF AT THE WAY HE TREATS ME AND MY KIDS, GRANDKIDS, FRIENDS .. IT'S LIKE HE WANTS TO ISOLATE ME FROM EVERYONE .. HE PUSHES EVERYONE AWAY ... HE GETS JEALOUS IF I SHOW ANYONE ATTENTION, OTHER THEN HIM, BUT YET, HE ISOLATES HIMSELF FROM ME, AND WE HAVE NO RELATIONSHIP, OR MARRIAGE, IN EVERY RESPECT OF THE WORD . HE ONLY NEEDS TO KNOW THAT I AM HERE AT ALL TIMES, TO DO HIS BIDDING, TAKE CARE OF H-I-S NEEDS, AND WANTS ... HEY I'VE GOT THE LIFE !! WOULDN'T YOU SAY ???? N-O-T .... IT HURTS REAL BAD, BECAUSE I LOVE THIS GUY .. VERY MUCH ... EVERYONE TELLS ME TO LEAVE HIM, BUT I TOOK VOWS IN SICKNESS AND IN HEALTH .. I KNOW THIS IS A SICKNESS, AND I RECOGNIZE IT AS WHAT IT IS .. A D-I-S-E-A-S-E .... I WOULDN'T ABANDON HIM IF HE HAD CANCER, OR ANY OTHER ILLNESS ..... A DISEASE, IS A DISEASE, IS A DISEASE .. I JUST NEED SOME ADVICE AS HOW TO COPE ..... THANK YOU, AND GOD BLESS MARIE
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