I'm feeling really shaky tonight. I took a Serax and that's helping. Really wierd feelings. I'm starting to panic about getting some work. I'm out of money and haven't paid the rent. I'm starting to freak. this is not at all how I want it to be. I have no car. I'm fucked, I'm just fucked. I've felt like I'm agoraphobic this past week. Is this normal at just about 3 months sober? I'm in way more shit than when I REACHED the bottom. I'm at a whole new level BELOW the bottom.
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