i was sobre for 9 mnths. i drank. now its been 1 mnth 7 days. i have found a sponcer. sort of. someone im holding onto for dear life right now. i dont think shes the one. i go to meetings at least 3 times a week or more. im very shy and have a hard tme meeting people outside the doors of aa. so when the meeting ends ....so do i. it feels like eveyone else can get to know people. i dont know how...im frustrated. i want to start the steps. but i dont think i sould even try without somone i trust beside me......lol.......now trust thats another issue....i feel like im going in circles. I DONT WANT TO DRINK. but every so often it seems like its calling me. just so i can stop all this frustration, just for a min :( i have found my higher power and i pray pray pray. when bad things come into my head i go through the things im greatful for in life to push the bad thoughts from my head. please someone, anyone just a little help.
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