Hi,I decided to join this community because I am getting so scared of my addiction to alcohol and the control I know it has over me.I am sitting here now as I post and need a drink so much that I am cold and shaking.I can't even wake up every morning and remember what happend the day before.I wake up not wanting to face another day.I can't even begin to tell how many times I've done the craziest things while I was drunk.Alcohol has taken over my life,I hate myself when I'm sober and thats why I drink,then I hate myself for drinking.I'm tired of feeling like this ,but I feel like I have no choice but to choose the lesser of two evils.I'd rather drink then face myself everytime.So I suppose my pathetic question would be,how to stop drinking and start caring ,when there is nothing here worth saving or caring about?
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