Hi, I'm new here again. Use to come on here a lot years ago. Wanted to introduce myself and say hello. I plan to be on here much more. I need to reach out more and find some hope again. I"m going to start AA again Thursday. A neighbor is taking me along with. I finally said yes. Gotta do something. I can't fix myself, I need to put myself into the positions where I can get help though instead of isolating. It's been so hard to think I"ll ever know what joy, peace, love, happiness, self-esteem, purpose, even hobbies are. Relationships, what's that? I haven't lived in over 25 years. I feel dead inside. I need to know I can find those things again. That I can get better. Last time I felt ok was when i was a child. 2 days sober and it has to be the last time. I'm going to start going to church Sunday also with the same person who's nice enough to ask me along. Thanks for reading
I've been married for almost 15 years & have 3 children between the ages of 13 & 9. My husband is a functioning alcoholic. After pleading with him time after time to stop/slow down his drinking I was finally fed up & made him move out. He was never an abusive or angry drunk. Sometimes he would lose his filter & say mean/inappropriate things to my kids & I. So I'd say borderline verbally abusive....