I am near 4 and half months sober and am pretty confused I guess. I don't really seem to enjoy anything any more. All of my old friends are still drinking and I kind of just stay in on weekends and am pretty miserable. I really miss it I guess sometimes "before" it got out of hand, but the fact is when life matters struck me I crippled and spiraled out of control into a miserable hole. I don't know if I'm a "dry drunk" or what but sometimes I really don't enjoy life. I attend meetings nearly every day and help other people when I see that they are in need of it which makes me feel alright, but deep down I truly miss the wild side with my friends and just floating through life in the mirage of drinking with no real worries or sorrow. I dunno I guess I miss being outgoing and social and having a life somewhat. I guess it's just hard for me at my age of 22, I guess I got an early start compared to most of my college fellows at 14-15. Everyone is telling me I'm making a great decision for myself but deep down I truly liked when my life was managable and I had alcohol as an "option" on the weekends and didn't get into too much trouble with it. I guess I'm just kind of miserable, you could say "self pity" I guess but it's just a really really hard transition for me right now any advice would be of great appreciation.
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