Agh, the demons, how they play havoc with our body and mind.

And how bloody hard we have to work to get over them.

I have been right where you are and I feel for you, try to get your mind of the subject, I don't know wash the dishes, phone a friend, go for a drive, stick your head out the window get some fresh air, Iused to, helped me,1/2 an hour later I would have forgot my cravings.

Sometimes we crave because we are thirsty, we don't realise we are thisty, but a long cool Juice or water often takes the edge of the craving, also something to eat, I found that helped as well.

You know these are all mental things, mourning the loss of not drinking is normal.

Just hang in there, the rewards are to good to miss, and with time this bullshit goes.

Well done for sharing at your time of need, thats better than picking up a drink, indeed most things are better tahn picking up a drink.

Hang on in there, my thoughts are with you

Trickey

Hang in there, hun. I'm fighting it off right now, too. But I just keep thinking how proud of myself I'll be in the morning knowing I made it through the night. You will too.

Sometimes I feel like jumping off a building, but what I have learned is everything changes, I will feel good again, that's why we take things one day or one hour at a time. You just walk through the feelings and things get better over time, they really do they get so much easier the longer we stay sober, alcohol wreaks havoc on the mnind and body and takes a while to recooperate. So take it slow and take it easy on yourself. Be good to yourself and others and good things happen.

The desire for a drink is so hard to ignore. Every night is is a battle. I feel like I am complete when I have a drink. I know about the rollarcoaster, high and low, and the higher I go, the lower I go.

Thanks for the responses, all of you. I'm feeling better now and I'm goign to do something to distract myself. I've been through a lot emotionally lately and I think I just need to relax. I'm not going to drink tonight, that is do-able and tomorrow looks brighter because of it. Thanks for being supportive.

Good for you for being so honest about your feelings. I can literally feel your struggle. Can you get yourself to a meeting tomorrow? The feelings you are talking about are exactly the feelings that are relieved just by going to meetings. They take away that restless aggitated unrest that makes a person not want to be in their own skin. It is amazing what meetings do. I hope you feel better.

My sponser tells me that is when it is time to get down on your knees. Realize that the drink wont change the reality of people places and things nor will it make them better or worse... Only for you. XXX You can get through this I am minute by minute Day by Day! Good Luck

A new day and I made it through. Feels very good. I wanted to answer the questions though abuot meetings and havign a sponser. I went to my first s.a. counceling session Thursday evening and she said it was very important that I have a support system. But she also said that while she eventually does want me in AA, for right now she would rather me get an outpatient placement at the rehab here and start going to meetings through them. She felt I would better relate to the people there and they would have better knowledge of what meetings would suit me. So I called the place yesterday and got an answering machine and left all of my information. Leaves me hanging for the weekend but I think I will be ok. But have any of you ever been advised like this?

I remember cravings that gave me physical pain and had brought me to knees and made me cry. I the thick of it I told myself this will pass and it's my alcoholic mind talking. I'll never forget that. I'm glad you getting the help you need. I will pray for you.

I was in an outpatient treatment program and not one person tried to tell me what meetings were "good" for me. A treatment center is good as it can help you identify the problems you are having and what triggers make you want that drink. Although it may take you a few meetings or more to find the one/ones you really like and that really help you focus on your sobriety. For always, take things one day at a time and it will get easier to live without alcohol or its effects....Good Luck