For me it was much easier to accept after going to a meeting and saying it out loud in front of other people.

Acceptance is the key to all our problems.Thats a sentance from the Big Book of Alcholics Anonymous.When you stop and look at your drinking carrer you need to weigh the pros and cons.Were you drinking when bad things happened?Did the world seem impossible to live in?Did you drink in order to deal with life on lifes terms?Could you enjoy a persons company without the use of alcohol? We teach a program in AA,that is directed toward living life without alcohol.It will change your life.That is no easy feat there is nothing easy about changing.It means we have to admit defeat.We can no longer rely on alcohol to solve anything.Go to a meeting and get a sponsor.I know you've heard this before but it really does work.

Just read my friend in Need Thread, it has taken him years to admit it, and now needs hospitlisation to recover.

Just remain undecided and maybe in a few years you could join him

Trickey

You already have baby girl. When you know you're in denial you're moving into acceptance.

Purpleorc,
I admit I have an alcohol problem huge problem, and I want to stop I really do, but I don't. If you find the answers let me know because it is like smoking for me I don't want to but I do... and I defend it.

Once the emotional pain get's bad enough, everyone has there limit.Seem's to cut right through the denial.

You may not have hit your bottom as yet. If you are still quesitoning your alcoholism - maybe you are not ready to get sober. You will know when you have hit your bottom because you cannot go any lower than where you are. It is then that you will absolutely know you are an alcoholic. Hopefully you will come to terms with this before you kill youself. The destiny of all alcoholics is to (1) get sober (2) go insane or get a wet brain or (3) die. I don't see a choice, myself. Good luck.

Mummsie - we alcoholics will fight to the death to defend our right to kill ourselves with alcohol. It's the nature of our disease - it's insane thinking. Aa meetings help us straighten that thinking out.

thnx for all ur comments. managed to go all night with out even wanting a drink.my coucillor is sorting out meeting for me as we speak and i will be seeing her again on monday to find out where to go. she will come with me. but still find it hard to accept.x

I suppouse it is hard to accept, after all who want's to be an alcoholic.

But accept we must, far better to be a recovering alcoholic than a full blown alcoholic in Denial.

Accept it, then move on

Trickey

Go to a meeting and say it in front of your group. That may make it easier for you, then (if you don't have one) get a sponsor and start working the steps...Good Luck