you know i was thankful i found this site due to my situation and not being mobile, and it had been a while since i had been to a meeting. this site has everything a meeting does especially the drama. ive always wanted to write a book and just going to meetings either here or one in person id get enough material to write a really good drama, it would have everything a good book needs, drama, jealousy, cheating, love , hate, suicide and in some places ive been murder, not physcial murder but murder of the soul. it took me a long time to realize I AM my biggest problem, not anyone or anything around me , just plain old ME. and until i figured that out i just couldnt make heads or tails of the 12 steps. even when we dont like our choices we still have a choice and believe me when i say i was a self made victim, as we all are at some point during our drinking. im thankful to be able to come here and read things that reminds me im gald to be ME today and not fighting this ISM anymore. thanks to all who ive met here, and to those i havent. i need everyone of u more than u need me. u remind me of what is to be in pain and what it will be like once i do some homework. i got sober not to be miserable and ill be damned if someone else will have control of how i feel, not today.
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