I’ve been working hard and had some success and it’s really all because I am not drinking. But there comes a point where I start thinking about a drink and the thought sort of taps on my head like Chinese water torture. I know it would be many and then lots of trouble but the monotony of life sort of gets me.
Also tonite my wife had a glass of wine before dinner and we went out to a steakhouse and she ordered a big 10 dollar glass and then we get home and another. She never gets tipsy and it’s spread out but the fact she can just irks me sometimes. I know she is not alcoholic like me.
Just some success is worse than bad times for me. I get to thinking I want to enhance it and I know a drink is nothing but trouble but sometimes on Saturday it makes my mind f’ed up and drive me crazy.
Tommorow is another day
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