I have a silly little situation with my husband that is causing me to be angry and want to drink. I'd like to share. My husband is an avid deer hunter. So far this year he has killed 4 or 5 deer (our freezer is full) along with his biggest buck ever ($350 taxidermy bill). Now he tells me he's spending the weekend hunting with his buddy. Normally, this wouldn't bother me *too* much but next weekend his family (who I didn't invite) is coming for Christmas and we need to clean house this weekend. So basically, he's going out to have fun and leaving me with three kids to clean the house. I called him today, asked him to come home Saturday night, and he reluctantly agreed. I'm afraid he's going to be a total ass on Sunday and be mean and critical of the children. I still want that drink. I went to a meeting today and talked to my sponsor. I won't drink but I want to and I don't like feeling that way. I'm sure my higher power's plans for me do not include alcohol so I would not be living according to his/her will if I were to drink. Besides, I'd probably be mean to the children since I'm angry. Anyhow, like I said, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Comments are welcome.
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