Shit.............Today, I just thought I'd go and have a little flutter on the pokies. Didn't think about it, just went. I'm soooo stupid, I know I can't drink or gamble, or do anything addictive for that matter. Little flutter does not even come close to how much I lost. Why do I do these stupid thing. I hate myself. I am sooooooo stupid, a big idiot. f*** I hate myself. How stupid can someone be...............Sorry everyone I guess I'm just venting. Yes, now I feel sorry for myself. Geez I'm pathetic.
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
I have my maxed amount of epidural shots of my cervical DDD....(and no one cares about my lumbar DDD)..... I've done physical therapy, muscle relaxers, Amitriptyline, Nortryptiline, desipramine.....narcotics... So I decided to go to a spine specialist and they have me on Gabapentin. Its been two weeks and it did nothing for my lumbar ever... but it did seem to help my cervical and arm/hand pain...