Shit.............Today, I just thought I'd go and have a little flutter on the pokies. Didn't think about it, just went. I'm soooo stupid, I know I can't drink or gamble, or do anything addictive for that matter. Little flutter does not even come close to how much I lost. Why do I do these stupid thing. I hate myself. I am sooooooo stupid, a big idiot. f*** I hate myself. How stupid can someone be...............Sorry everyone I guess I'm just venting. Yes, now I feel sorry for myself. Geez I'm pathetic.
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