I really have a major hard time in forgiving myself and letting go. I can't seem to let go the the awful way I brought up my sons. I was a single parent altho I was married to their Dad for a short period I left the abuser, alcoholic as we were no good for each other. I tried to do alot of things with my sons and take them places and enjoy things but the drinking really messed me up and damaged them. Their grown now and we still talk alot but I feel deep down inside they hate me. My youngest just moved away again because he wants to live as he wishes and wants to be a bum and smoke pot and live on the streets. He enjoys this life style and God I worry myself sick when he's out there but we can;t really live together either. I am so lost without him. I was very close with him. I am trying again to get sober and managed to get a few days in now. Still I feel so lonely anymore. Please help?
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