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Ok, so I want to share a scenario with you. This is from my journal entry. I am trying to be more moderate, but I don't understand why I get so moody sometimes. Please tell me what you think. Thanks.
Well, another wacky weekend ensued. Because last weekend was so terrible, with me getting drunk and being rude to my husband, I've desided to moderate my drinking. So my new rule is: "No drinking during the week, and if I want wine (my favorite drink) on the weekends, I will only buy 1 small bottle." So far it's working. Still, today's my only day off from working this week, so last night I was a little overzealous.
I got a nice Pinot Noir, which was a tricky little beast, as it is so smooth and doesn't taste that alcoholic, though it is. I am proud I stopped at a little more than half a bottle down, but still ashamed and baffled by my behavior.
Friday night was my long-awaited time to let off some steam, and party, but, unfortuntely, my husband was sick. He didn't even get out of bed to say hello to me after work 'till 8 p.m. I was downstairs, cooking up a decadent feast for dinner, drinking my wine. I even made cake! And when he finally did come down, he wanted quiet, and obviously didn't feel well. And it made me furious! He couldn't hardle eat, and here I am, fuming that he spoiled my one day of fun.
When we finally went to bed, I laid next to him, and burst into tears. "What's wrong?" he said. I felt like such a loser to be behaving like this when he was sick. This past week, when I wasn't drinking, I tried hard to meditate and to be slow and at an even keel, but as soon as I have an evening off and wine, I got so worked up!!!!!!
Well, another wacky weekend ensued. Because last weekend was so terrible, with me getting drunk and being rude to my husband, I've desided to moderate my drinking. So my new rule is: "No drinking during the week, and if I want wine (my favorite drink) on the weekends, I will only buy 1 small bottle." So far it's working. Still, today's my only day off from working this week, so last night I was a little overzealous.
I got a nice Pinot Noir, which was a tricky little beast, as it is so smooth and doesn't taste that alcoholic, though it is. I am proud I stopped at a little more than half a bottle down, but still ashamed and baffled by my behavior.
Friday night was my long-awaited time to let off some steam, and party, but, unfortuntely, my husband was sick. He didn't even get out of bed to say hello to me after work 'till 8 p.m. I was downstairs, cooking up a decadent feast for dinner, drinking my wine. I even made cake! And when he finally did come down, he wanted quiet, and obviously didn't feel well. And it made me furious! He couldn't hardle eat, and here I am, fuming that he spoiled my one day of fun.
When we finally went to bed, I laid next to him, and burst into tears. "What's wrong?" he said. I felt like such a loser to be behaving like this when he was sick. This past week, when I wasn't drinking, I tried hard to meditate and to be slow and at an even keel, but as soon as I have an evening off and wine, I got so worked up!!!!!!
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I say my struggle "for now" because I will eventually work my program, the 12 steps, THOROUGHLY as it is the only way to recover and not have to struggle from day to day any more.
If your question is to us is,"How do I drink occasionally", I can't answer that, because for real alkies like myself, it's abstinence.
Your question to yourself should maybe be, "Am I an Alcoholic?".
I have no idea how to drink in moderation, I was never a moderate drinker. In the early 90s there was a program in the media called "Moderation Management (MM)." The founder of that program served time in jail for 2 counts of death by auto, she killed 2 ppl in a blackout. I think if you need to be taught how to drink in moderation, you probably have a problem. Have you tried AA?
A normal drinker is somebody that can have say 1 or 2 units a day, not get moody or desperate over it and can take it or leave it.
That does not sound like you, your are sacrificing your normal drinking pattern in the hope this new regime will make you more normal, many of us have tried this and many of us have failed.
In the end we choose to give up drinking as that seems the only sane way to go.
Maybe you will see this soon to
Trcikey
It will give you more insight out the disease and what you are going through too.