Hi everyone, I don't know what's really going on with me these last two days, well I have been sick with the flu and all but I have been really down and sad. I miss my sons so much. They live in another state and I am going to see them next month but I wish it was today. My Husband is always busy at our shop and hardly ever talks to me and we live in a very small town and of course I don't have my license back yet but working on getting them soon as I don't get out much and that makes it hard too. I have been thinking about my crazy past and all the things I lost and screwed up and it's not good thinking. I feel bad about mostly my life and what I did to myself and family but I am trying and they do understand and all and they never shut the door on me which they should of in my books. I had to let my old sponsor go as I just couldn't handle all her problems, she's the one that has the suicidle Husband that steals her meds. and then tells her that the dog ate them. Yeah right.I keep busy alot and have hobbies too but I just feel real lonely and sad today and I hope the feelings pass as I know they will but in the meantime does anyone else go through major ups and downs?
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