I have been in AA for a long time. The first time that I came in for the first five years I stayed active and happy. Got married, stopped going to meetings. I started going back, then quit again. Started going back. I have not been to meetings in about 2 years. It wasn't until I ended up in the hospital for depression that I know that I need meetings. I allowed my emotions get the best of me. I still have not gone. The other night I got my Big Book and read. I realized that I had stopped doing the things that I know I need to do. Going to meetings, meditation, reading the Big Book. Sharing my experience, strength and hope with other alcoholics.
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