Feeling "bad" about yourself will just keep you drinking, do you think going to a meeting might be a good idea?

If you have a sponsor that is telling you what a failure you are, you need to get a new sponsor.
Alcoholism is a chronic, relapsing disease. CHRONIC RELAPSING. So you relapsed. A lot of alcoholism experts consider this to be, for a lot of people, almost an inevitable occurence (and hence focus on what they call risk minimization, rather than what may be an unrealistic expectation of someone in recovery never, ever, ever slipping or relapsing).What you need to focus on now is getting back into your recovery mode.
Just think where you would be if you hadn't had the five years sober--hard to say, but likely much worse off at this point in your life, right?
Good Luck

I agree with Beth, it's certainly not a requirement, but it happens. I think you should go to a meeting tonight and share that you need help. You need a sponsor who is going to help you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again.

It is sooo hard, just want to be a person with some wilpwer instead of being so weak

roommate, you know it's not about will power. If it were will power we wouldn't be here. If you had diarrhea would will power make it go away? I hope you make it to a meeting tonight, I'm rooting for you.

ok im going to get some strength and go to a meeting today. thanks all

For me I think your sponser is wrong, 5 years of sobriety is to me far from a failure.

We do sadly fall over, and we must learn from this, feeling bad about yourself is typical, I was so busy beating myself up when it happened to me I just drank more, in the end I sought help and I am now looking forward to my second anniversary (this time), in the past 5 years I have been sober for 4, to me that makes me a success and not a failure.

I know its hard, put pick yourself back up, brush your self down and get what help and support you can, and maybe you should look for a new sponsor.

We have a diesease and only we tend to learn this the hard way, good luck on your journey

thanks you for all your support everyone its nice to see that strangers care when the one person that i thought would care didnt

IMHO you need a new sponsor.

In june i was off the cocaine and alcohol for 6 years. Back in june 17th2001 i went into a detox then to a halfwayhouse program for 6 months and kept going to aa and na from all that time. But In august on the 17th I had a relapse on the alcohol due to a depression i went into when a close friend passed away. I realize it was no excuse to relapse over that because it made me more depressed and after ending up with alcohol poisoning on the 22nd of september. After getting my stomach pumped it made me realize i needed to get back to aa and also realized it wasnt worth it because I had seen I what it had did to me in the past and seen i had nothing and what it did to me this time and realized i was going to end up going back to having nothing and possibly back to the cocain and having all sorts of problems with people again. Ive worked hard to get to where i am. So before you anyone decides to have a relapse again take a look at your self in the mirror and look back at your past and see what it did to you.

OH MAN IM SO DRUNK CANT FEEL ANYTHING

Well, when you sober up try to make a meeting b4 you start again, good luck.