Hi, sounds like you are in a very unhappy place.

Have you tried anything to deal with the depression and anxiety and issues from the past? If that is what is causing you to drink and you resolved it then maybe you wouldnt drink so much as the reason for drinking would no longer be there.

Or is it possible that the depression and anxiety is caused by the drinking and not the other way round?

It is great that you asked for help and there is lots available whatever your problem. It is important to identify exactly what the problem is so that you can find the correct solution.

Really happy to try and help you if you would like. Send me a private message anytime.

Nicky.

For me being alcoholic was about what happened when I took the drink....I could not have one without drinking until I either blacked out or until there was no alcohol left. I would make a fool of myself, end up in situations I would never be in sober and I hated myself everyday yet still I drnk. I had no control once I took the first sip of alcohol.

I never understood that I was drinking to intensify every emotion yet also to escape from every emotion.....it squashed all feelings. I used alcohol to 'complete me' but really all I was doing was running from me.

So..what happens when you drink?

Hello there.
My depression and anxiety is what causes me to drink sadly.
Drink to me makes me feel free and floaty and about to take on anything.
But sadly thats not the case..because when I sober up the problems are still there.

I am seeing my therapist tuesday and I am going to bring this up with her, and the past problem thats becoming rather dominate at the moment.
Thank you for your kind words I will keep your help in mind. ^_^

In one of the AA pamphlets i have, it says:

The test (whether you have a drinking problem or not) is not when you drink, or with whom, or how much, or where, or what, or even WHY you drink. The real measure is the answers to these questions:

What has your drinking done to you?
How does your drinking affect your family, your home, your job or school work, your social life, your physical well-being, your inner emotions?

Trouble in any one of these areas suggests the possibility of alcoholism.

Never a good idea to drink when your feeling depresed.Actually for an alcoholic like myself it's never a good idea to drink at period.I found that when I got sober a lot of my troubles vanished allthough I did need some help with depression.To be able to deal with our problems with a clear mind is one of the benifits of recovery.

As to whether you have a drinking problem, if you are drinking a pint of JD alone (and within 2 hours), then I think the answer is "yes".

As far as depression, alcohol will really mess with your emotions and mental fitness.....to the point of not knowing which started first -the alcoholism or depression. All I can say, it that the alcohol won't cure it - in spite of that "floaty free" feeling that you describe. It only makes you feel worse in the end.

I'm glad your seeking help and have an appointment this week though.

I wanted to add that when you go see your counselor do not sugar coat the amount you are drinking or the depth of your depression. THe only way mental health professionals can help is if the client is upfront with them. That said, many people are embarrassed to admit how much they are drinking. DONT BE! It is the only way they can help-to know the truth and guide you from there.

Thank you everyone -big hugs-
Yea my depression is getting rather bad, I don't know if my meds need to be changed or what. ):
But yea I will be open with her and tell her whats going on thats for sure.
The healing processes is whats going to be the most dificult for me never been a good healer lol

I'm not a doctor; but I do know that alcohol IS a depressant, and drinking alcohol with other medications is not usually advised. I used "other medications" because a lot of us used/used alcohol AS a medication.