I was at work yesterday, I had called my 5 friends in the program and we talked a while. What was funny though I got about 15 more calls over the day, from others in AA. We talked about meetings, other people, Bill who killed himself, and why he might have done it. We shared our views on depression, anxiety, signs to look for in others and a myriad of alcohol related subjects. Later that night my last call was from Jeff, we made small talk about Bill and then Jeff aske me how I was taking Bills death, I told him I was glad it wasn't me, but it had put me on gaurd for my friends, and what I should be looking for and my ignorance on long term depression. Jeff told me that he had suffered from depression for years, and he had learned what to look for. A light bulb came on over my head, I asked Jeff if he was calling me because of Bill, he replied yes Randy a bunch of us were worried about you and we wanted to let you know we are here. I asked Jeff what made all of you think I was depressed??? He said well you are always clean shaven yet haven't shaved in a week and you have missed some meetings. I told Jeff that I loved the hell out of him and I was overwhelmed by his gesture. Then I told him I was growing a beard and was working late plus I had plumbing problems at the house. We both laughed about it and agreed that better safe than sorry was the way to go. I knew I had good friends but now I know I have friends that are with me in deed and spirit. I am rich beyond compare!!!!!!
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