I was here yesterday talking about my valium/alcohol/mania incident (of which we will not speak again after I was so rude to the emergency guy I can never go back) and a lot of people suggested AA quite strongly. I have always had my reservasions about AA but was really condidering going this time. I went back to my GP today because I'm no better and needed more valium to sit still enough to even type this amd i brought up the AA thing. And he told me not to go. He said AA was for alcoholics (DUH!) and I said yes I know that but just because I don't drink any more doesn't mean everything is ok on the alcohol front. His opinion seems to be that I used alcohol in the past to deal with my anxiety and so that means I'm not an alcoholic. What utter bullshit. I abused alcohol for over 10 years before quiting and i actually felt quite insulted. Plus, I doubt there are many of us out there who drink every day simply because we really like the taste of alcohol. I don't know, maybe he's right and I'm missing the point. All I know is one drink leads to 20 and one day drinking leads to a week. Thats why I don't drink anymore. Is he right and I'm not an alcoholic? ps. still manic. Oh ands he IS refering me to an alcohol abuse councillor but apparently that's to deal with why I BELIEVE I'm an alcoholic when really I'm not. I feel like crying.
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