I have been sober now for one year and two weeks and am actively involoved with AA. I am on the 4th step and working with a sponsor. My drinking has taken me to jails, hospitals and detoxes time and time again. I know I can't drink but I am overwhelmed with depression. I don't know how much longer I can keep hanging on like this. I feel like I'm dying and just want out of my insanity, my life.I need a reprieve but my sponsor is taking me through these damn steps so slowly I want to tear my skin off. I don't know what to do, its been a year and I still feel like I can't live with or without a drink!
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