It is rally hard for me to look at the person I once was and to look at the things Ive done. I hurt not only myself but everyone around me. My kids, family, friend's all lost do to my action's and that's to just list a few. The thought of what I put my children through is unbearable. My oldest child at the time was around 9 or ten yrs old and she asked me if you love me and my little sister why do you do the things you do? What do you say to that? I had no answer. How do you explain to your child that your an alcoholic and why I chose the drink over them?
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