Today is day 6 and Im feeling pretty darn great I have to say. I went to a gathering last night were there was alcohol & it was my favorite kind the variety pack of Sam Adams and I didnt even feel like having one. I think it had something to do with what my husband said to me on the way over (and the fact that I didnt want to wake up guilty to have to tell you all that I messed up). I told him that I was feeling very nervous about hanging out and that I in no way wanted to drink but didnt know if I could do it. He flat out told me. well you said you werent going to do it and I think this is going to be a true test for you. There hasnt been any alcohol at the house so you havent been able to drink. But, since you said you werent going to do it prove to yourself that you can do it and forget about it. I remember once glancing at the open bottle and thinking of taking a sip but then I thought of how far Ive come just to have to start all over again. I wanted to prove to myself that I could be around it without thinking about wanting some. So when that thought creeped into my mind because thats what it felt like I reached in my pocket pulled out my phone and read all your words of inspiration and you know what it worked and I feel great. First we got home safely, we didnt have to spend the night somewhere because we both drank, second I woke up this morning super early a little tired but I was up and I ran 2 miles. Now Im going to sit and do some homework the day is young. As of yet I have no worries about tonight because Ive already made plans to attend church tomorrow & I want to feel as good as Im feeling now. Thanks a bunch again everyone!
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