I know you said AA wasn't "right" for you but I would give it another shot. No one person can just kick this thing. You need support and friends. Try and find a meeting that focuses on the 12 steps. I know a lot of times you'll just get people in a meeting just bitching about there problems and thats a bummer for anyone. If nothing else it will occupy your time from drinking. Hang in there and just take it a little at a time. I'm relatively new here to but keep heading in the right direction.

Welcome, and well done for getting back to the next part of your journey.

I think now you have proved to yourself that you just don't do one drink.

I did the same 3 years ago at a party, ahhhhhh 1 drink won't hurt, it was a bloody big glass cos it lasted 4 months, and ended with me in a hospital having detox

We can't have one drink, thats our problem, when we can accept that, we can begin to recover.

When you feel you can have one drink, start running the camera forward, imagine 1 hour from that first drink, then 2 hours and 3, then think about the next morning, because you honestly know where that one drink is taking you.

Its just the alcoholic mind that is telling you its OK, listen to the true mind the one that says its not, because that is the part of our Brain that really knows what it is talking about.

Come on, its not the end of the World, we are just people that cannot drink,in Fact Lucky Us.

Trickey

I found out about AA back in the 80's when I was 25.Then I went back out for ten more years. Through the years I would abstain for months at atime. Everytime I would pick up I would drink to make up for the time I didn't drink. Just a vicious cylce and my desease progressed. I came back to AA at 35. Relapsed, came back . I just took my 12 yr cake in oct. So you see AA works and it will give you the tools of how to live life on life's terms. Just keep coming back

I can't imagine that I could have quit for even the two months that I have w/o AA. You need a support system. In my opinion willpower is not sufficient to keep an alcoholic from drinking for very long.

All I can say is AA is my only way to get through this. I have tried it my way, and THIS is also Day One for ME!

I am desperate too! More than I ever could have emagined. So, for me, it has! to be meetings.

That's all I know...for me, it's that or I drink!

I will go because I haven't found another way!

I will go even tho I am scared again!

I will go because I have to!

One day, I will go because I want to!

I will go because one day I want to share with others like me, like you, the exp., strength and hope that was given to me and that is going to be what saves me!