I am there with you; I was sober for 4 weeks but then relapsed using my ED as an excuse. I had some wine and while I am not planning to drink again because it did absolutely nothing for me but indulged my stuborness.

Good luck....

You don't have to relapse again!

Have you tried AA? Drunks helping other drunks is very effective because we've all been there. You could learn about tools to use in moments like that. The disease is always going to tell you it's ok to drink, that's what the disease does. AA is my suggestion, good luck with whatever you decide to do.

Put it behind you, its just another lesson.Try not to have the stuff to redily at hand it gives you thinking time if you have to make a point of going out to get something to drink, other than that get some Cobra non alcohol in or non alcohol wind, its not perfect but sometimes can be the differnce between getting wrecked and feeling better about yourself.
Regards stepgirl

I respectfully disagree with stepgirl. I think when you're trying to quit, non alcoholic wine or beer is very dangerous. I still suggest AA, good luck.

Consider it a stumbling block and not a brick wall. It is hard to do, but not impossible.

I would recommend club soda with a splash of grenadine and rose's lime before non-alcohol substitutes. I just like the feel of sipping on something and having something in my hand so that's now my beverage of choice.

One poor choice does not the rest of a life make. You can do it!

Its the remorse and self loathing that makes it hard to say, oh well, I f***ed up again, but heres to a new day.
That's how I felt on Sunday after a total wrecked night. I hated myself for what I did, and no matter where i tried to lay aroiund the house, I could not get away from me.
I was told at an AA meeting that day, that i had to forgive myself. i made a mistake. I was truley sorry. tell someone you are truely sorry, even if its just us.
Then, forgive yourself, and move on.
I am sober today, and thats all that matters. Not what I did last week. You need to try thinking like that too.
Hope this helps.

For the alcoholic alcohol is a great remover it is used in cleaners to remove stains from carpets .It also been known to remove pay packets, jobs, homes, families and then all self-worth and dignity a person has.

If you want to remain sober there is action that you need to take. If you want to drink that is your business. Dont let false pride get in your way.

In AA we have a 12-step program that can help prevent the next drink by knowing the triggers that may set that next drink up and what to do about it.

We can, where I cant.

Like instead of picking up the next drink, pick up the phone and talk it through. Thats where a sponsor can help or another member of the fellowship who understands believe me a none alcoholic will never understand why we drink the way we do.

We dont need an excuse to drink we have plenty of reasons, its Friday, its Monday, its sunny, its raining, the job sucks, the jobs good its endless.

If willpower worked you wouldnt be here its action that works. If the family says why dont you use willpower like uncle bill. (Only example) or they say you are weak willed. Tell them next time they have diarrhoea use willpower to stop it, believe it wont work. Thats what its like for an alcoholic when it comes to alcohol. willpower alone will not work.

Have you thought of going to AA it may help if it doesnt your lost nothing.

Dont be to hard on yourself if you are alcoholic it is only natural to drink but you dont need to. If you want help all you have to do is reach out. Being here is a good start.

I hope all goes well for you.

Lionel

Pick up the phone and call someone before you pick up and go to a meeting...listen first and talk when you feel you're ready, but if you want to quit, sometimes it is easier with help from others who are recovering from alcoholism. Pick yourself up and try again..Good Luck

I know it all too well. Just have to forgive yourself, don't look back and keep trying and moving forward. I've been doing it for about just as long as you too and I got drunk last night. I feel so bad about it but I can't change it now, can only move forward and try not to do it tomorrow. One day at a time. good luck

Anyone that has managed to begin recovery and NOT relapse at all, I take my hat off to them! I fell back for a day or two at 3weeks, then managed 6 weeks, then managed 2 and a half months. Im still counting this time. The point I personally think is important is to remind you that its not all that unusual and the MOST important thing is that you get back on da wagon. You pick yourself up, dust off and go "Well that was a stupid mistake" and get countin the days again. Weeks will turn into months, months into years. Just stay with the process.

Hey - I also have to point out that after abusing alcohol for years, 3 weeks is an awesome achievment in itself! One day at a time remember, but dont let anyone take that three weeks off you - you did it, you probably still recall when you didn't think you could do that but YOU DID. So now you've proven that length, prove longer to yourself! Keep your chin up - you rock!

davm i agree with ktharp think at it like this its not gonna get any better if you drink ask for help get some phone numbers people will help you if you want it you have choices you choose peace

Thanks to everyone that replied. Im feeling like crap now because it is now day 3 of drinking. Its a saturday afternoon and im drinking by myself while my daughters watch TV. What a freakin role model I am.

am also here for you try yo put it behind you quickly.
why go through all the shit again accept you can't drink successfully you can do it .chefgazza

I messaged you with information for your local intergroup. You're going to have to reach out if you want help. I'll be praying for you and your family.