Did you stop drinking by yourself, or are you working a program? Working a program will help you deal with the feelings you are talking about. I had frequent dreams of relapse in the beginning. I still have them sometimes. But they come and go. They are just dreams though. They are not facts. You are still sober and that's all that matters!!!

About the things you've done and you think are embarrassing, we've all done them... There is nothing to be ashamed of. It's just where your disease took you. The AA promises say: 'we will not regret the past, nor wish to shot the door on it. We will learn that no matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others'...

Also, in time, you will learn that your past is your greatest asset. I know this is my case. The reason I say this is because whenever I get a stupid idea... that I would like a drink or a drug, I know that they will take me right back to where I left off. And I dont' ever wanna go back there again. Hope this helps.. You are not alone

I've been sober for 3 mos. now. At about 2mos. I started having the drinking dreams. Talked about it in group. Turns out it was probably just a step in recovery. Being able to sleep again without drinking I started having vivid dreams. As Cory stated, as long as they remain dreams and not reality, don't let them upset you too much. Also, as far as the guilt for past mistakes and how we treated people- that is why we have a step covering making amends as part of our recovery. Hang in there and good luck. I do still have the dreams, but after 29 plus years of drinking, what do I expect? The dreams are less and less now. Don't give up or let them get you down.

Hi

Your not alone, I used to wake in sheer panic, thinking I had drunk, I would curse myself,till I realised it was a dream, nd then I was so thankfull.

The drinking dreams go away, and I think its kinda natural considering how much we all drank.

As for the other drems, well again I had them, but again I was not surprised, my brain was begining to work again, it as no longer floatin in pue alcohol, the poor thing had actually began to think again, and yes it was surprised at all the crap I had caused when I was drinking, and so I rightly I allowed it to mull it all thrugh, rather than drown it.

Nothing here to worry about, it seems that you managed to have saved sufficient brain cells to dream, let yu brain o through its motions, the dreams do stop, but as someone else on here said it is a small part of recovery.

Called thinking, quite scary when your brains not used to it LOL

Take care things get much much better

Trickey

my drinking dreams use to upset me, now i kind of look at them as my hp's way of reminding me of all the shame and guilt that i get to live without. i wake up with a pit in my stomach then i begin to thank god for my soberity . another aa friend says it show we are growing because our program keeps us on track when awake. sleep is the best chance my disease has because of my tools when awake

I saw on your profile that you have just stopped, you didn't list anything like AA.

Non-alcoholics don't dream about alcohol and don't obsess about it while awake. Having said that, I strongly suggest you stop socializing in bars, that is no place for someone trying to stop drinking and stay stopped. Have you tried AA? AA is an amaing support network of drunks helping drunks, and they'll also suggest that you not socialize in bars. Best wishes to you.

Amazing, I read this thread and replied, then guess what I had both dreams last night.

Maybe my mind was working overtime, in the old days it was just not able to.

I am not letting these dreams worry me, because I am sober and we all have dreams any way, so please do not worry about yours, just one of lifes mysteries I think

Trickey

That's why some of us do the 12 step's to get rid of all the garbage we created with alcohol.