I had 5 years. well I have now relapsed.It now has been 8 months since my relapse. I was very reluctant to go back to AA,(humility)Well I have gone back. But I just can't stay sober. I suffer from anxiety also. I will go 5 days without drinking, then I will pick up. I just want relieve from the anxiety. Well then the next day the anxiety is 20 fold. Well on Monday I picked up a 6 pack. I called in sick on Tuesday, I drank the whole day (a whole lot) just so I would delay the hangover and the anxiety that goes with it. I spent all day yesterday in bed. Ridden with fear from panic Well today I still am feeling like I am detoxing and anxiety. I feel like I am at my wits end. I feel like I will never be able to stop drinking again. I am so depressed. I have een thought about going into treatment, but I have 3 dogs and 3 cats, and I have no one to take care of them.But I am so scared. I so much don't want to drink. I really hate it. But I keep giving into the craving. I need some experience, strength and hope PLEASE!!!!
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