I don't know how to move on with my life after all I did while drinking and drugging. I sometimes will wake up in the middle of the night with a new horrible memory accompanied by an overwhelming feeling humiliation and guilt. This happens too when I see people that have witnessed my horrors while intoxicated. How do I get over this? I listened to a lady in AA today talk about getting her kids being taken from her and miraculously being able to forgive herself. How the heck does someone do that? I have not had my kids taken away, but I sure have done some crappy things. I know I need to or I will stay in this rut I am in, and it is not a good place to be.
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