tonight i had to go to the ER because i had cut myself so bad, i got 7 stitches and then was sent home. when i came home, i fessed up to my mom, about absolutely everything, the drinking, the cutting, and stealing money from her. she was extremely upset, but more worried than angry, she was crying. she told me how her dad tore apart her family with his alcoholism and that he died from liver cancer which very well could have been caused by his long term excessive drinking. then, she made me give her all the alcohol in my room and i watched her pour 8 bottles down the drain, she made me give her my checkbook, my credit card and my debit card, and i have to approve all my spending with her first, i have to pay her back in full, i have to go to AA, i'm not allowed to spend all my time alone in my room, and i have to call my therapist and psychiatrist tomorrow and tell them what happened. i haven't had a drink in 18 hours, it's seems like an eternity especially because i'm going through really bad withdrawal. anyways, that's all i wanted to say.
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