I am in my thirties and I have been drinking on a daily basis for the past six years. It has become a habit. I do crave the alcohol and look forward to my first drink of the day. I don't get totally drunk, but I do drink at least 1/2- (rarely 1) bottle of wine daily and have a very hard time not having at least one glass. It has never been a problem until recently. I NEED to have a drink in the evening or afternoon if I'm home. If I am going out with non-drinkers for an evening event, I HAVE to have a quick glass and a half before I go. I always thought I could control it, but lately I need that one or two drinks. Nobody suspects that I am an alcoholic, but I am beginning to wonder. Most of my friends don't drink and I am paranoid that they look down on me because they know that I do. I find myself sending emails at night that I don't remember the details of and it's embarassing when I'm confronted with the subject matter the next day. Am I an alcoholic? Am I just stressed out and need a relaxant??? I do enjoy drinking but lately feel that it has more control of me than I do of it. I'm going to work with a hangover most days and I'm neglecting household duties. I like it and hate it at the same time! What is happening??? Maybe I should quit for a time and see what happens, but I don't think I can because I like it too much. It relaxes me SO much. Help. Is there a live chat line for support?? Your thoughts are appreciated. :)
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