I thought I deactivated all the buttons that are dangerous to me. But someone has been trying hard to push these buttons. I know I will eventually, deactivate this button. It's made me think hard and I have shared all the details at a meeting. I know the right things to do to keep me safe. In recovery it's very easy to say expect the unexpected, but it is true. Knowing that someone is trying to make me react for his or hers own little amusement, trying to unbalance me mentally. This I see as a threat, I could react angrily, which does not need strategy. That would be giving in to the part of my mind that craves chaos and confusion. I need to take the power away from the button pusher, so I can walk through the gateway to continue my journey. The more I share it the less power the button pusher will have.
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