Recently I have had a good amount of haters cross my path, and enter into my journey. Some have been inconsiderate emotionally, some have been inconsiderate in terms of my financial wealth, and some are just to ignorant they don't know I would love to murder them, and if not for recovery, I would have considered it.
Shit gets real when you fuck over motherfuckers like me. I don't give a fuck when not recovered, many bullets for you, one for me. A very simple solution to inconsiderate people.
I have changed though, and I no longer have the character of a shooter, and I say that, because psychological profiling from professionals labeled me the type of person who ultimately turns into a shooter because he can't tolerate the bullying and inconsideration any more.
It's painful to not be considered, neglected, ignored, it's a definite self-esteem threat, and if I am dishonest about who is doing the inconsideration, neglecting me, and who is indifferent about me existing, I can drink over that. The dishonesty that maybe that sick person isn't so bad, and isn't so toxic, is the character defect I cannot live with. The knowledge after doing an inventory of a toxic person who won't be changing any time soon, is a great base to enact change off of. Not doing an inventory of the person ultimately, but doing an inventory of what they inconsideration does to the path of me staying recovered. The obvious answer to the toxic person is just that, they are unsound, and toxic, and you'll get poisoned if you allow yourself a message from a toxic, insecure, and overly dramatic person. It's my fault if I decide to stay around this person, or be influenced by those types of people. I think it is called co-dependency, where you are relying on an idiot to make life better for your or to make you feel like you want to feel. Anyone who thinks an idiot might have some answers, is kind of an idiot themselves, so idiots I cannot change, but I can remove my energy and awareness from being around idiots, and in this case idiots are inconsiderate people of selfish nature, that at the end of the day, won't be very helpful when great help is needed.
I have still prayed for patience, acceptance, and humility to know, I am an idiot if I think idiots running the show is going to be either profitable for all or make life easier. When selfish idiots are making decisions, they lead with their interest first, and that naturally takes away from all other interest, so regarding all interest, I have to get away from those who believe a selfish interest is the right way to live life, that is the reasoning of an idiot, and it will create an insanity no human power can solve.