Here I am at 7 in the morning! I feel so alone. My kids are about to get up, my fiance is getting ready for work and I feel like a deserted island! This cannot be normal. I am going through the routine everyday. Everything seems normal, but I am not. I have been out of treatment for about 2 weeks and I haven't used. I have felt like it a few times. I found a bottle of rum while I was cleaning. I called my sponsor and she talked me through pouring it down my sink. I almost had a panic attack. I am also dealing with chronic pain and a benzo addiction or xanaxes and klonopins. All these pain meds and benzos plus the booze well I am just effed up right now to say the least!!! So any way it is very lonely on my island. I need a bridge or a boat ... a raft or even a lif jacket cuz I can swim..... well now its 8 I had to stop and go cuz they couldn't see this.... plus my mind takes time to start and stop. Man, when will this ever get better? I hope I can hold out til I can get to a meeting this evening. ANy help from you guys is appreciated. Pm me or I am always up for a chat.... thanks in advanced!!
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